Notes

Photos: Alex

i had a dream. i was someone else. i felt pain. someone else’s pain. so sharp, i had to wake up. it was real.

pockets full of sperm, you carry on as disgust takes over me. you made it. lust is not in animal nature. it is human. if you are what human is, then i hate humanity with all my human heart. i have an animal instinct to escape. escape those eyes of desire, those bodies trembling with ecstatic pleasure, those invitations in your perverted fantasies. flesh rots. the world is rotten.

this was when I knew she was getting old. not older, but old. she did not look a moment older to me. but I knew her body was giving up. this was when I realized for the first time that I was going to lose her.

i have a reoccurring dream. it is a reminder of a failure. it is a reminder of you.